Praying for a Better Tomorrow

I think my heart is breaking.

Every day is another spin of the same story.

We're still having behavioral problems.  We're still struggling with meanness, hitting, kicking, and throwing things at other people.

That's a real problem at day care.  We're trying to be very proactive, but if other parents start complaining about my child, not only will I be humiliated, but we may be struggling for child care while my husband and I both work during the day.

I dislike that everyday is a constant focus on discipline.  I dislike that we can't just pick them up from day care and talk about their day.  We have to talk about why hitting is wrong, and how much it hurts other people.

Which usually ends with me in tears, sometimes before we're out of the day care parking lot.

We're forever grateful that our day care is working with us, and we are grateful for some really great teachers there.  But it gets harder and harder for me to leave them in day care, knowing that my child isn't thriving there.  He has some amazing moments, but there are struggles just moments later.

We're met with out pediatrician, and he confirmed what we had hoped for, that he's a normal little boy with a lot of ... spirit.  Our pediatrician stressed the need for consistency, which we are doing.  We've developed a system and we're sticking to it.

Our pediatrician also recommended a parenting class sponsored by a grant held in our county seat.  Our classes start tomorrow night and run every Tuesday for 12 weeks.  (Sidebar: Did you know that in 12 weeks is the week of Christmas! How is it so soon?)

[Edit: He didn't recommend parenting classes, because he though we were bad parents.  He said we're already doing the right things, but that we may be able to learn new techniques and more.  He used the analogy, every one takes prenatal classes without a second though, why is it that every one is hesitant about the offerings postnatal?]

I want nothing more than to raise a strong, healthy, boy who understands trust, respect, love, and the graciousness of our Lord, but it is a challenge.  One I don't know that I'm always ready for, but we fight the battle anyway.  Everyday.

Here's to praying for a better tomorrow.